It takes some work to get yourself out there and go for things that you want. It isn't always easy to get noticed for your hard work and to be recognized as the person who would be best for a job. Honestly, when you make mistakes, it's even harder to prove yourself because there are plenty of people who will focus on one thing you did wrong and let every other redeeming quality go unnoticed.
I'm not saying that I give a perfectly unbiased opinion all the time. When people make serious mistakes, I think they should be held accountable. But I really like to give people more credit and usually more respect than they always deserve. In general, there's a good reason for somebody's mistake or slip-up.
I really respect the people in my life (both my peers and teachers) who can let go of failures. I'm here to tell you that I've slept through alarms and missed classes before. I'm nowhere near perfect, and the first impression that some people got of me was that I didn't do work and was lazy--that I didn't care. Anybody who truly knows me knows that I hate unpreparedness, I'm almost always early to everything, and I hate not doing work. I need a list and a plan, and there's no way around that most of the time. If you've taken the time to get to know who I am beneath the surface, you know that I'm not actually that quiet. I have opinions, and they're rather strong most of the time. I'm so incredibly driven to be the best at everything I do, and I won't accept anything but my best all the time. I beat myself up over amazing performances that just aren't my best. I'm not afraid to tell most people how I feel about the majority of things in life, and I've come out of my shell a lot since when a lot of you first met me.
Being that so many people have looked beyond my failures, I can do really great things. From being asked to accompany the University Choir on flute, to being asked to play on the Spring Honors Recital, I've been recognized as a strong player and musician by the music faculty. I get requests to play in pits and orchestras for local productions all the time. I'm always asking to do something new, and I love pushing myself into things that I'm not comfortable with now.
For instance, coming into college, there's no way that I would have been comfortable singing for anyone, much less in public, but just joining choir and Surround Sound has taught me so much about choral music and has led me to consider a vocal ed major rather than instrumental a lot of the time. I'm honestly still considering it, and to anybody reading this who has an advice, please tell me how you feel about it.
My peers generally recognize this too, as they just elected me as the new Student Director of Surround Sound, essentially leading the group in musical aspects. I can't describe how excited I am to be able to lead a group and make great music. It's going to be an incredible experience.
I guess the point of this blog is that...it doesn't take that much to put yourself out there to be noticed. It really isn't difficult to set yourself apart from other people and be the person that people want to work for them. All these opportunities have really encouraged me about life and I feel pretty good about my growth. I know that I it isn't that hard for me to go out there and try for things, and sometimes, that little bit of effort is all it takes to find something amazing.